You Have To Decide If You Want Me In Your Life Or Not, This 'Hanging In The Middle' Is Painful

Dec 10, 2018 by apost team

One minute you are trying to get as close as possible. The next minute you push me away. Do you have any idea how terrible that makes me feel? Are you aware of how much you are messing with both my mind and my heart?

I really want consistency in a relationship. I cannot take this back and forth, will you or won’t you, that you do. When we do spend time together, everything seems to be great. You seem to be as much into me as I am into you. You are kind and loving and so very sweet to me.

However, that is only when we are together. When we aren’t, you don’t even call or text. I have no idea what is happening with us. When you see me again you go back to your old tricks. If I am the one to pull away, you want to chase me. I really hate when I have to play games. It isn’t my style and I am tired of it.

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You only seem to want me when you think you could lose me. I need more than that. I need more reassurance that things will be great with you. I really do not need to hear that you are simply happy with how things are going now and not to make a big deal out of it.

Because I really am not happy with the current state of things. I want to know where I stand with you. Don’t give me the excuses that you have prepared- I am quite tired of them. If you cared and loved me the same way that I do you, nothing should be stopping you from moving forward with this relationship.

Life is going to be full of “what ifs?” That is just how things are. You are not the only one who is scared of the future and what it can bring. I worry all the time that things will go wrong. What if you end up breaking my heart? What if there is someone else you like more?

However, I also have to think about the positive what ifs- what if we have a really good future together? I’m completely ready to take the leap and put my fears on the back burner for you. I need for you to want the same.

I am really hoping that you will want the same type of relationship soon. Because I do not plan to wait much longer for you to make a decision. I feel as though I have been plenty patient with you already. I don’t need someone who isn’t fully committed to the relationship. Please believe that I really do care about you. However, I am worth the time and effort. I refuse to settle for someone who will not give that to me. I’ve done it in the past and it isn’t something I wish to go through ever again.

All I want is for you to make a decision. Tell me that you are ready to become fully committed to me. It is okay if we go slow. I only need to feel certain that you are all mine. I want to know that you are proud to call me your girlfriend and that you are eager to introduce me to your family and friends. I just need to know that I am special to you.

So please decide whether to not you want me. I hate feeling the way I am right now. I don’t like the “almost” that we are stuck in. I deserve more than almost. I deserve a fully-committed relationship.

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