The Thought Of Falling In Love Again Is Scary To Me

May 11, 2019 by apost team

It has been almost a year since I've been in a relationship. After a few bad experiences, I decided to embrace the single life. I am happy with the progress I've made over the past few months and have started to consider giving relationships another chance.

However, I still have a lot of reservations. I feel as though entering into a relationship is like entering a dark cave. Based on my past experiences, I can't help but associate relationships with negative feelings and emotions. I am afraid to face this potential misery and pain again.

Searching for love is a long and complicated quest, and I am not a fan. I'm nervous that my past experiences will repeat. I don't think I can handle that pain again.

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I know that this fear may be an exaggeration, and I understand how these apprehensions sound to other people. I haven't been able to completely let go of the pain caused by my previous relationships. These experiences were too visceral and potent to be forgotten. I am more protective of my heart and feelings now.

Although love may sound wonderful and romantic, this isn't the only emotion experienced in a relationship. Having a long-term relationship with another person is difficult and strenuous. Being in a relationship requires a person to be vulnerable and honest. Today, love only sounds painful.

Many people aren't sure what to think about their current relationship. There are times when a significant other may seem loving and caring. On the other hand, there are also times when these feelings are called into question.

I used to think that relationships were supposed to be painful and stressful. I accepted these emotions as part of the experience overall. Now, I have learned that love doesn't have to be difficult. The problem wasn't that I was in a relationship. Instead, you were the cause of these negative emotions.

After a few months, I started to physically hurt from all of the internal pain. I instinctively knew that something wasn't right. No matter how much I tried to make the relationship work, my experience only worsened. This relationship hurt my heart and destroyed my ability to love.

In the past, I loved carelessly and genuinely. I loved without caring how the other person impacted my happiness. This is one of the main reasons why I am scared to date again. Even if I found the perfect partner, I'm not sure I have the capability to love again.

I have built a protective layer around my heart to keep away all of the pain that I experienced in the past. Unfortunately, this protection has also kept genuine love from entering. I am unable to locate my true feelings in this whirlwind of emotions.

I am tired of falling in love only to have my heart broken within a few months. I deserve to be happy. I will no longer settle for less than what I deserve. I will only offer my heart and love to someone who is worth the effort and risk.

In reality, every relationship carries some level of risk. While there are some relationships that are more toxic than others, every partnership will be a gamble. Feelings can change, and there is no guarantee that things won't change.

Despite all of my past experiences, I am ready to give love a second shot. I am still scared that my heart will be broken, but I am also tired of holding myself back. I want to learn from my past mistakes and find a happier life.

Although the path may be treacherous and painful, I know that I can't keep my heart in a cage forever. I won't let my past mistakes dictate my happiness in the present or future. It is time to make a change for the better. I am entering into the world with an open heart and high spirits.