I Will Forget You One Day Because I Will Have What I Deserve

Aug 27, 2018 by apost team

We have had a beautiful relationship, but it has not always been perfect. There have been agonizing, difficult moments where it felt like we would never last. For so many years, being with you was all that I wanted. I never wanted to be without you. It felt like I had always been with you as you become my past, present, and future. I thought we would always be together, and I never realized that I would one day have to walk away. It was not easy to step away from the memories, hopes, and dreams of our life together.

Now that I have decided to move on, I cannot even start to express how painful it is to break away from you. 

I did not want this to end. I loved you and felt a deep affection for you. At first, I ignored all of the signs that you were wrong for me. I put up with your faults and looked away because I wanted to be by your side. Finally, I realized that my love would never be reciprocated. You were my everything, but I was only an option.

For my life to get better, I had to move on. 

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I miss cuddling next to you as we watched a movie at night. Even now, I have to stop myself from messaging you when I see something that makes me smile. I miss you more and more each day. I miss your promises to love me forever and our crazy nights. Each memory is bittersweet. You said I was your best friend and that we would always be together.

Now, I realize that this just was not true. It will take me a lifetime to overcome your deceit. Even though I know that it was all lies, I still wish you would like me once more and tell me that I am the only person for you. It took me far too long to realize that all of your promises were just a beautiful illusion to trap me. 

My heart breaks when I realize how I was fooled.

I genuinely loved you and wanted to spend a lifetime with you. When I look back at the sleepless nights and pain, I know that I was right to move on. You made me doubt that true love was real. You made me believe that I was crazy and that all of my doubts were from insecurity.

Now, I realize that you were the problem. You could not love me the way I loved you. You claimed to be faithful, but I realize now that you never intended to be true. Our relationship was a joke to you. You made me believe that I was insecure and crazy when it was all your fault in the end. 

I know our relationship was based on your lies, but I still wish they were true. I want to believe that you loved me and that the memories were true. Then, I remember all of the painful days when you cheated on me and took me for granted. When I needed you, you were gone. The happy memories were just an illusion. Each time I want to return to you, I remember all of the reasons why this toxic relationship would never work. 

Each day has been agonizing for me. I struggle to move on and find a new purpose in life. The only thing that helps is knowing that you never loved me. I do not deserve a coward or a cheater in my life. I do not need someone who says pretty things, but never acts on his promises. You cannot love me one day, but act like you were never in love with me the next morning. 

I have you to thank for my new approach to life. Now, I know what I want from a man and what I deserve.

I want someone entirely different from you.

I want someone who loves me and shows me his love through his actions. Being with you has taught me that I deserve better and that true love does exist. It just can never be with you. 

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