Chrissy Teigen Writes Heartfelt Essay Dealing With The Loss Of Her Son Jack

Oct 28, 2020 by apost team

After tragically losing her third child with husband John Legend due to pregnancy complications one month ago, Chrissy Teigen has now penned a heartfelt essay giving more insight into what happened. Having been very public with her pregnancy, the actress and musician endured the loss of their son Jack in a similarly public manner, and they are now sharing more details of the story.

Teigen initially announced the tragic news that the couple had lost their baby on Instagram on October 1, alongside black-and-white photos of the couple in a hospital room. After expecting their third child, a boy that they'd already named Jack, Teigen experienced complications while giving birth and the baby didn't make it. Now, one month later, Teigen is addressing the emotional experience in further detail in a heartfelt essay that she wrote. Posted to Medium on Tuesday, October 27, the essay begins with a thank you to her friends and fans for their messages of support. 

She goes on to explain that while pregnant with Jack, the doctors had diagnosed her with partial placenta abruption. She says she experienced placenta problems in the past and even had to deliver her second baby Miles one month early due to this. With this pregnancy, she had been on bed rest for over a month prior to get the baby to the 28-week mark, when she'd deliver him early as well. However, she'd been experiencing bleeding, and the doctors were monitoring her closely, "hoping for things to heal and stop."

After her condition became worse, she was admitted to the hospital and monitored there. But eventually, the fluid around the baby became very low and despite many blood transfusions, the doctors told her that "it was time to say goodbye," as the baby wouldn't survive, and if it continued longer, Chrissy might not either. She explains that one of the black-and-white photos she posted was when this was all happening, showing Chrissy absolutely devastated in the hospital. She discusses these photos, which she received some criticism for, explaining:

"I had asked my mom and John to take pictures, no matter how uncomfortable it was. I explained to a very hesitant John that I needed them, and that I did NOT want to have to ever ask. That he just had to do it. He hated it. I could tell. It didn’t make sense to him at the time. But I knew I needed to know of this moment forever, the same way I needed to remember us kissing at the end of the aisle, the same way I needed to remember our tears of joy after Luna and Miles. And I absolutely knew I needed to share this story."

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She continued, addressing the criticism she received:

"I cannot express how little I care that you hate the photos. How little I care that it’s something you wouldn’t have done. I lived it, I chose to do it, and more than anything, these photos aren’t for anyone but the people who have lived this or are curious enough to wonder what something like this is like. These photos are only for the people who need them. The thoughts of others do not matter to me."

Towards the end of the essay she discusses the public nature of what she and John have gone through, saying:

"I feel bad our grief was so public because I made the joy so public. I was excited to share our news with the world. Stories leading up to this had been chronicled for all. It’s hard to look at them now. I was so positive it would be okay. I feel bad that I made you all feel bad. I always will."

You can read the full version of Teigen's powerful essay here.

What would you say to Chrissy Teigen in this hard time? Tell us in the comments, then be sure to pass her inspiring essay on to those you know.